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hey everyone...it's time to start writing again.

Monday, 25 December 2006

Christmas Day.

Then came you
And you took that away
It's not so difficult
The world is not so difficult
You take away the old
Show me the new
And I feel like I can fly when I stand next to you
So while I'm on this phone
A hundred miles from home
I'll take the words you gave me and send them back to you

-Blue October

So....Christmas Day 2006....it was great time spent with my family and just a lazy day of unwinding myself, very very chill. I missed someone special though.
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Foiled
By Blue October
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Wow, Christmas Eve 2006...never going to let it go…For me personally, I have always kind of struggled to get my head straight during the holidays with so much to do and so little time to do it in, we often loose touch with what truly matters and the people in our lives that MAKE time special. I have re-connected so much with my parents since coming home from school and I am truly thankful for that…I also have rekindled my passion and love for going to church….Do not mis-understand me I never lost my desires for attending but I don’t think I have ever appreciated my church as much as I do at this point in my life. It’s amazing what a few years of growing up can do to a person. I feel like this Christmas was my test for many reasons, to see what it was like to balance work and home life, and also to see what it would feel like without a best friend. And you know what? I have never felt more alive than I do right now. Maybe, because I have realized that I have some of the best friends in the world and they will never let me down no matter what, but also because I think I have come to find that making decisions for myself instead of relying upon others' outside influences is truly the best way to go when making choices. God knows my heart and He has taught me to read my heart...and go with it....and so that my friends is where I'm at right now. O but Christmas Eve was beautiful....got up around nine and went to church for the main service at 11, it was great...(until I saw some crazy person driving away with radio blasting, but that's beside the point)...then I came home got lunch for my parents...and then went out with my close friend. We had the best time ever, I am really into photography if you were reading this and didn't know that about me...haha...and I actually took some time today to capture the moments of life I so often miss or take solely for granted. My friend is amazing anyway....but our adventure today....was WOWZERRR, yep that is the only word for it . ok well, it is 2:25 in the morning....Merry Christmas to you all, may God Bless you this Christmas and may you recognize what celebrating Christmas really represents. It isn't about the gifts that we will receive and get tired of or return; Christmas is about the gift we receive from God in the gift of His Son, a gift that will never tarnish or wear. May we rejoice in this, God is good. *John 3:16*

Friday, 22 December 2006

isn't it amazing...

Hmm...today was pretty much one of the best days on record for me in a while...i spent a pleasant day with a close friend of mine and now I am with some of my best friends tonight. It is amazing to me that exactly when you need that extra push God sends people into your life to make it ok to keep going. This night was also very unique in that at its end....some interesting words were about to be exchanged....in fact I believe that they WERE exchanged. How is it that a few simple words can leave someone so unhinged that they cannot proceed to say anything else..and the conversation then results in a myriad of mumbles and bumbling confusion? Yes, it is way too early for the exchange of words that occurred tonight but in all honesty it was extremely comfortable...and comforting...damn where is my head at right now? I cannot be this confused can I? Am I really feeling this way? Is it this easy for me to fall? I don't think so...yet...tonight I was there that moment sealed my feelings...am I scared hell yes, I don't place my trust in the unknown like I used to...and I just don't know what to think.

Monday, 18 December 2006

vacancy...

as i sit writing this tonight...I am feeling pretty hollow, in difficult times you begin to realize the individuals who are really going to be there for you through thick and thin through any decision or choice you make...and some friends may surprise you...those who you never thought cared really do...and the ones you held so dearly leave you behind to side against you (even though there should be no sides to this), the true nature in those people is shining tonight. I am hurting too...I have a heart and it hurts...you should know this...